R.E. ~ Positivity ~ Written July 24, 2012 ~ 10:39Am

If you say it LOUD enough, PROUD enough, and Constantly, than you will begin to believe it! That is my friends how Positivity works...

R.E. ~ Acceptance ~ Written May 14, 2012 11:40Pm

It's comforting to know that what we had couldn't last & that I owned up to the reality of you and I. There was a YOU, but no I!!!

H o P e ~ written january 11, 2012 10:12 PM

Although I know better than to rely on another for my own happiness. For that would lead to ultimate failure and disappointment but I just mean u know that human love yearning that we all crave in some compacity. Even as I lay here I am bombarded with all the possibilities of things that could go wrong in my head. Trusting completely I see that is something I just can't do. I feel like allowing myself to be trusting and have this underlying faith in another - I feel as if eventually it would all just blow up in my face. So a part of me just lingers on in hope that maybe this feeling of negativity which has swept up underneath my surface would just eventually be made to be obsolete. The One Made for me ... Usually with others so many things do not add up and it's not always by action it's by my gut feeling ... The voice screaming inside myself saying stop .. Nope not him... You will know ... Will i know ... Do i know ... or is it i am plain madd and utterly crazy ... Do i trust and believe that he exists for me and there is such a thing as happy.

Mind warp ~ written jan 14 2012 10:44 pm

Mind warp mind fuck mind jumble Strange but beautiful illustrious and grandeur belief of what is real as opposed to what is fake zapped into a galaxy of perplex indifference phased out into a non reality built into nothing.

Rainbow Excerpts

I am finding these old writings / some are excerpts pulled from bigger pieces ... And for me its like i am truly reading this all for the first time... How time flies ... I am going to call these old passages ... Rainbow Excerpts ... Haha 😎

Overspill ~ Written ~ january 15, 2012 11:22 PM

Hearts go pitter patter Love flows out at sea Desperate awakening measures Grappling at your feet Time waits for no one Yet there's still that sweet escape You & I forever intertwined Great escape Love Overspill

Stumbling ~ Written 11/2/09 - 5:33 Pm

Stumbling Current Location:my bed Current Mood: gloomy Current Music:sims pets 2 music November 2, 2009 5:33 P.M. Today is just not a good day for me emotionally. I just can't shake this gloomy feeling. So many things are factoring in to this state of gloom - everything is just soaking and registering into my bloodstream. So it's kind of intoxicating at the same time - but not that good kind of intoxication. Here I am just blabbering nonsense. I'm just feeling it all out - and I guess this is my way of functioning. I am definitely not a happy camper right now. And I really need to figure a lot of things out - and I need to be realistic about whatever outcomes may come to be - and this process needs to be absorbed fully. Every decision made in life has a cause and effect - every action has a reaction - every truth has a hint of a lie buried somewhere within it - every move takes you to a different place - and there is always the precaution before every major decision is made - no matter whether the decision made is right or wrong - its always whats right for you at the moment (well at least in most situations) and the end result is always the aftermath of whatever frame of mind you were in from before - and the not knowing part of what to do is so distressing because we always want to do what is right - but we never know until we get there. This would of been a time in my life (once upon a time ago) where I would of resorted to getting my cards read - or reading my own cards (and I was pretty good at it) but that is another on going battle/struggle within myself to not go back to that - but I just wish the answers would show themselves to me and shine brightly in my face - so that way I would stop stumbling.