Stumbling ~ Written 11/2/09 - 5:33 Pm

Stumbling Current Location:my bed Current Mood: gloomy Current Music:sims pets 2 music November 2, 2009 5:33 P.M. Today is just not a good day for me emotionally. I just can't shake this gloomy feeling. So many things are factoring in to this state of gloom - everything is just soaking and registering into my bloodstream. So it's kind of intoxicating at the same time - but not that good kind of intoxication. Here I am just blabbering nonsense. I'm just feeling it all out - and I guess this is my way of functioning. I am definitely not a happy camper right now. And I really need to figure a lot of things out - and I need to be realistic about whatever outcomes may come to be - and this process needs to be absorbed fully. Every decision made in life has a cause and effect - every action has a reaction - every truth has a hint of a lie buried somewhere within it - every move takes you to a different place - and there is always the precaution before every major decision is made - no matter whether the decision made is right or wrong - its always whats right for you at the moment (well at least in most situations) and the end result is always the aftermath of whatever frame of mind you were in from before - and the not knowing part of what to do is so distressing because we always want to do what is right - but we never know until we get there. This would of been a time in my life (once upon a time ago) where I would of resorted to getting my cards read - or reading my own cards (and I was pretty good at it) but that is another on going battle/struggle within myself to not go back to that - but I just wish the answers would show themselves to me and shine brightly in my face - so that way I would stop stumbling.