BreAking BAdD

I am here .. you are here ... I am listening.. You are listening ... I am in your head .. You are in my head ... And we're spinning .. Tell me, Is this who we are .?. sweet passions violent surge .. When Two souls emerge ... I promise you .. This will never end ... Together we are the great escape ... Set in heaven with our promised date .. Part of the 'promised' land ... Love so real the gods Command .. What don't you understand ... I'm here for you till the bitter end .. This love right here, forever defend .. Heavens LoVe prescribed for uS for sure ...paSsioned desires scribbled unto my diary floors... Secrets released behind closed sheeTs.. truth Mirrored Scenes sung into beAts ... MuSiCaL SensAtionS... LoVe kiLL.. Falling fast .. Take my HAnd .. Combine uS two.. I think I want you more BoO.. Heavens over SpiLL.. In for the KiLL.. I Am right here ToO!! Waiting on YoU!! Mirroring fragmented pieces of everything we are ... Sacred by FaR ... KiLLed by my StAR.. Shattering everything .. We believed ... Once to be true .. Split in tWo... ? Feeling so BLuE.. ScAttered inSaNe .. BuZz in my brain.. lighting my days ... Changing my ways ... Breathing LoVeS rain ... Sudden on pour ... DriVe in me sore .. I want you more... You make me GLAdD to be so MaDd deSiring you oh sOo BadD .. PleAsure So rAdD .. I'LL RAce yA to my beDd .. You're making me wet in complete sAturAtion... For YoU!! plunging your detection of an erection straight into Me.. My SouL screAms ... Your nAme.. Enough with the GAmeS!! Twin souLs run this Age !! We're under attack .. Strangers entering their HoMe LAnds... BreAking BAdD .. Kundalini on The Rise .. GALactic Surprise .. It's do Or Die !!

GirL interrupted ~ because of Instagram

This was meant as one of my long ass ranty hashtag thing a majiggy but inStagrAm sucks when it comes to allowing me to express myself with a long rant lol and I don't know how other people do it ... They write books .. But whatever .. I guess it's just me lol so I'm not fixing it or changing it .. Leaving it as is .. I just feel like sharing :)) #nOpe #me #Either #juStSay #HeLLo #nowIgotS2gO #no1reALLyCaresAnyWay #moStPpLareJustNoseyMeAn&goSsipY #tALK2meAbouTreALshiT #youKnOwThingsThAtActuALLyMaTter #oriFnotDontTaLK2meATaLL #genuineneSs #authenticity #ReAL #rAw #unCuT #unPLugged #ReALTaLK #reALshiT #shOwMeYourAliVe #iDontAsSociAte2muchWithZombieS #butIAmVeryCiviL&stillKind #iReAcTquickComeBacKoneOfLoVE #theyCaLLmeEccenTric #fknElectriC #iGoTCeLLsAtOmsMoLeCuLeSBLoOd #spirit #courSingThruEveryInChofMe #getWithTheHiStory itAintNoMySTerY #TaKeAstepIn #LoOkWithin #ThereSsoMuchMore2uThatuJustDontknoW #eXPLoReTheSeA #FeeLYourbreeZe #iSeeDeAdPpLmoreALiVeThanManYofYoU #pLAtO #soCrATeS #ALLthoSeKAtS #wereTold2uS #hiStory #theyWereWAyAheAdOfTheirTimeS #wrongGenerAtion #ForWardThinkerS & in this #WorLd I talk like that or YOu talk like that .. And ppl got #joKeS calling uS philosophers like in the Ancient Times .. we Too Were obviously born in the fkn #wrOng #GenerAtion ... So tell me ... When does this shit finally #PoP off ?!!??! #yeAiDontFknDoSmALLTALk #EVeR !!!!! #oKMayBeSomeTimeS #butThAtsCauseImNiCe #andManYPpLAreNice2 #DiScernMenT #getHiPwithThatShiT #fknBunchOfDegeneraTeS #whereSyourHEART

Yes I know let it go ..

You see right through me .. How is that possible ... Why would you want to lol .. It's rather unsettling but quite the homecoming all at the same time ... You've been watching a long time ... How did I Not know ..

Thank you

I have to admit .. It is very very true ... You excite me .. You really do ... Thank you !!

Here .. Now .. Wow

I am here .. I have always been here .. Here is where I stay... In every possible way ... Mentally I am here ... Physically I am there ... Spiritually I am right back here ... You need me, I am here .. You need me .. In the same way I need you ... My heart is yours .. I Am only a whisper away .. I do obey .. In my own way .. It is my balance ..

Cranky loVe

It is said that to truly love another, there has to be no "want" No ownership or possession in your love ... Who said "my" wanting means ownership and possession. It just means I fkn "want" it .. "Want" "You" in my life ... Forget about possession / owning / obsessive / whatever ... Not all "wants" are the same ... Fkn tired of all my love shames ... Made to feel bad for feeling this way ... Punished it seems for having love in my heart ... Should of been born a robot ... That way none of this shit would ever fkn matter ... Ego / love / balance ??????? Blow me !!!

Why not ..

What if we made a plan ... To journey ... Into our space .. Place ... Let's create ... Where shall we meet ... Would you take my hand ... Let's try it .. If we planned it .. And truly tried ... I bet .. This time I would remember ... What is time .. When is now ?? I know we can do it ... For once .. Let's try something together ...

Eckhart Tolle

Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are! __________________________________________ Life is the dancer and you are the Dance ! ___________________________________ To love is to recognize yourself in another __________________________________ Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment #eckhart #tolle #perceptions #views #beliefs #honest2GodTruths #LetThisMarinaTe #in2urMindHeArtSouLEntireBeing #AllWeEverReAllyHaveisNoW I realized a long time ago the importance & the value in our nows. Of course I didn't realize all of this right away, because that's not how we humans roll.. I wouldn't allow myself to see the lesson or the good that came from losing my mom at such an early age as 9. I wouldn't dare for many years let myself believe that any good came from that experience. But of course I was completely wrong in my understanding. And I hate to use the word wrong .. Because all in all these were my feelings, & my feelings are very well valid, cause they are mine & I have every right to feel my pain, anger or whatever I choose to "feel" .... Isn't that the biggest indicator of all that I am Alive, the fact that I can feel. That I do have emotions. That I do care ... I Am a living breathing organism that lives a life of experiences that stirs within me a reaction of some sort that is expressed in actions of whatever emotion I deem the moment appropriate for ......Of course it sucks that for this particular moment it was extreme pain & anger ... & the last reminder anyone ever wants to feel or believes they need in order to feel alive is one of pain. Like.. Ouch!! No way ... Go away please !!! But reality is different for us all, You See ??!?? Anyways, the whole point is what I couldn't see, but it was happening to me anyway, was that without my realizing it, I began living my life in my now... Especially when it was concerning the relationships I was building around me... Forcing me to really look around at those whom I love and care for and understanding that tomorrow is never promised.. Not to anyone !! My moments as a child with my mother before she passed has been my rooting of my entire earthly existence, well in this lifetime. She was my world, and I so loved her very much. She was who I looked up to & idolized in every way. To me she was A star. My star !!!! And when she was taken away from me I just couldn't understand why ... So once she was gone the parts of my brain that surveyed & compartmentalized meaning/value & substance for me, made my own childlike grounding$ system of how I was to consciously treat those who meant anything to me & always letting them know how I honestly feel ... Which is lovingly valuing and cherishing them (IN MY NOW) in every possible way... Feeling robbed from not being able to say my own proper goodbyes to my mother & knowing there would be so much I would never know, that I would wish to know about her, and wanting to know what she would think or say about a certain something ... The people noW in my life well it is extremely important to me for them to always know & be aware of exactly how special and meaningful they are to me in my life. turning point for me In my life was 9... The ripple effect of those events changed my life forever. I even see it NoW With how I choose to consciously and lovingly raise my own daughter. My life may not be perfect, but the circle of love and friendships I have made over many many years of "Living in MY Now" ... The cementing & bonding of love so authentic & pure reminds me of how blessed I am to be so fkn fortunate to have been given something so undeniably priceless, that I know I wouldn't trade it for shit .. Ever !!!! NEVER!!! Not in a billion years ... Priceless.... Eckhart Tolle knows wtf he's talking about .. How beautifully his words articulate to those whom wish to "see" the simplicities of shifting our "Awareness" of living our lives in our "Nows" ... Our NoWs will Always Be OUR Bridge to our own Futures.... It is in these moments that we are absolutely FREE... FREE to be that change that we so desire to SEE... Know what I mean jelly bean ;)) Namaste bitxhes !!!!

S.i.s.T.e.r.s

Before I put this on Instagram I wish to share it here ... I don't know .. I just came up with it .. It sort of Just happened .. And I like it ... Love it actually ... So Ha HA !!!! Lol well I think it's cute & that's all that matters :)) SISTERS ... Step In~between Sisters The Effects Register STARS TAdA!! Lol there you go ... P.s. My love for my sister goes beyond what any human words would ever be able to describe or define. That goes without saying, or question!! May you too be blessed with a sibling that You would absolutely without question die for !!!! My Sister, my first chosen LoVe .. I Loved her before It was ever told to me she was coming. We came here together !! Namaste ;))

Hearts that bLeed

With everything that I AM, I open my heart, leaving it exposed for you to see .... Every drop of blood dripping from my hearts exposure, adds to its pain so free.

Uncut MotherBloopers

No matter the age, no matter the stage, since I could remember I've always been told by someone or another that there is something wrong with me ... Whether it be in something I had done, did not do, the clothing that I wore, the make up on my face , the no make up on my face, something that I said, something that I believe, something that I dream, something that I told , I didn't do this right, I didn't do that right, something that I made wasn't liked , something something something .. Always met with head on collision. (And I know we ALL can relate in some way .. That feeling of inadequacy/never measuring up to this Universal "standard" of measurement that seems to exist all around dictating to us what is really good) ... & As painful & unsettling as this "reality" of mine (ours) can be.... Heading many of us a down a iLL bumpy road.. (How many of uS get sucked into this toxic abyss of Misery) no wonder We ALL build fKn walls ... No wonder many feel misunderstood and alone ... No wonder many commit suicide... No wonder people are depressed .... No wonder people are addicted to seeking things they deem as pleasure only to be numb by its own sheer existence creating Zombies looking for some fKn apocalypse... seriously WTF is wrong with this WorLD??? I hear it all the time, that I am fKn crazy with the things I say or feel strongly about.. Well I think you're crazy for not giving a fK about what is happening all around you, and you wake up accepting that this is ok & so you move on every day with your miserable selves & life & adding to the DEFICIT of LOVE that Does not Exist here !!! Now that's fKn crazy ... Ooh she curses .. Really .. Well you just contributed to that poor kid slitting his wrist in the bathroom because you told him he wasn't good enough.. But ur more worried that your child might read that I wrote the word fK.. I Am just extremely GRATEFUL.. So grateful .. That No matter where I found myself one thing never changed, my inner knowing that everything was going to be ok... That this too ShALL pass .... I've never understood how so many only look to see the wrongs the faults in others & everything that they feel is going wrong in this world. How is attacking what you see as wrong, right ? How is knocking someone else down making anything else better ? I can't for the life of me imagine myself screaming or pointing out to my daughter every and if any wrong thing about her or anyone else that I love/know/encounter, just because its something I personally do not agree with... That wouldn't be LoVe, and that certainly won't make anything better or right ... The problem with Many is that so many walls have been built that So Many forget how to fKn talk to people ... Here's a #SHOCKER ... you can #COMMUNICATE your point & be heard, if you came From a LoVing Place to start with. & if for whatever reason what you are saying doesn't wish to be received on tHe other end, well this is where #RESPECT for your fellow human being would come into play, and you FKN WALK AWAY... yup you walk away ... SAVE it for another day when it is more likely to be better received ... Ding ding ding makes fKn sense dont it ..... As for day to day .... You wish to see a change ... YOU can be that change ... YOU are responsible for YOU ... YOU always have a choice ... YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU !!!! So anyways yea it's fKn Sunday .. And it's another most beautiful Day that I have been blessed to wake up to & I AM mother Blippin #GRATEFUL for ... Grateful for every WonderfuL & every miserable thing ever bestowed unto me in this lifetime, or any of my lifetimes ... Because it truly has taught me the significance, the value, the honor, the love & the respect of what it feels like to be human.. And to know that I actively & consciously make a Personal Choice everyday when I AwAke once again to Live my Life the best imperfect Most LoVing way I know how by accepting the ugly realities around me & Knowing that I take Pride in my Moralistic high feng shui philosoSuperbabble blab Deeply rooted universal Ground ... & it makes me fKn ecstatic that I Am Not like many of this worlds unLoVinG / Filled With so much Hate SouLS... by my own seeing & with my own experiences, & my own perceptions I formulate my own truths for what it means to live in a world that would rather tear you down as opposed to giving a hand, because that would just be the right thing to do ... I AM LOVE, no matter what you ugly motherfkrs try to do to me :))