Uncut MotherBloopers

No matter the age, no matter the stage, since I could remember I've always been told by someone or another that there is something wrong with me ... Whether it be in something I had done, did not do, the clothing that I wore, the make up on my face , the no make up on my face, something that I said, something that I believe, something that I dream, something that I told , I didn't do this right, I didn't do that right, something that I made wasn't liked , something something something .. Always met with head on collision. (And I know we ALL can relate in some way .. That feeling of inadequacy/never measuring up to this Universal "standard" of measurement that seems to exist all around dictating to us what is really good) ... & As painful & unsettling as this "reality" of mine (ours) can be.... Heading many of us a down a iLL bumpy road.. (How many of uS get sucked into this toxic abyss of Misery) no wonder We ALL build fKn walls ... No wonder many feel misunderstood and alone ... No wonder many commit suicide... No wonder people are depressed .... No wonder people are addicted to seeking things they deem as pleasure only to be numb by its own sheer existence creating Zombies looking for some fKn apocalypse... seriously WTF is wrong with this WorLD??? I hear it all the time, that I am fKn crazy with the things I say or feel strongly about.. Well I think you're crazy for not giving a fK about what is happening all around you, and you wake up accepting that this is ok & so you move on every day with your miserable selves & life & adding to the DEFICIT of LOVE that Does not Exist here !!! Now that's fKn crazy ... Ooh she curses .. Really .. Well you just contributed to that poor kid slitting his wrist in the bathroom because you told him he wasn't good enough.. But ur more worried that your child might read that I wrote the word fK.. I Am just extremely GRATEFUL.. So grateful .. That No matter where I found myself one thing never changed, my inner knowing that everything was going to be ok... That this too ShALL pass .... I've never understood how so many only look to see the wrongs the faults in others & everything that they feel is going wrong in this world. How is attacking what you see as wrong, right ? How is knocking someone else down making anything else better ? I can't for the life of me imagine myself screaming or pointing out to my daughter every and if any wrong thing about her or anyone else that I love/know/encounter, just because its something I personally do not agree with... That wouldn't be LoVe, and that certainly won't make anything better or right ... The problem with Many is that so many walls have been built that So Many forget how to fKn talk to people ... Here's a #SHOCKER ... you can #COMMUNICATE your point & be heard, if you came From a LoVing Place to start with. & if for whatever reason what you are saying doesn't wish to be received on tHe other end, well this is where #RESPECT for your fellow human being would come into play, and you FKN WALK AWAY... yup you walk away ... SAVE it for another day when it is more likely to be better received ... Ding ding ding makes fKn sense dont it ..... As for day to day .... You wish to see a change ... YOU can be that change ... YOU are responsible for YOU ... YOU always have a choice ... YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU !!!! So anyways yea it's fKn Sunday .. And it's another most beautiful Day that I have been blessed to wake up to & I AM mother Blippin #GRATEFUL for ... Grateful for every WonderfuL & every miserable thing ever bestowed unto me in this lifetime, or any of my lifetimes ... Because it truly has taught me the significance, the value, the honor, the love & the respect of what it feels like to be human.. And to know that I actively & consciously make a Personal Choice everyday when I AwAke once again to Live my Life the best imperfect Most LoVing way I know how by accepting the ugly realities around me & Knowing that I take Pride in my Moralistic high feng shui philosoSuperbabble blab Deeply rooted universal Ground ... & it makes me fKn ecstatic that I Am Not like many of this worlds unLoVinG / Filled With so much Hate SouLS... by my own seeing & with my own experiences, & my own perceptions I formulate my own truths for what it means to live in a world that would rather tear you down as opposed to giving a hand, because that would just be the right thing to do ... I AM LOVE, no matter what you ugly motherfkrs try to do to me :))