SUFFERING....

I find it hard to get over the mourning of all those lives lost in the Connecticut elementary school massacre. I sit at home & I cry, I wash the dishes & I cry, I talk to my family & friends about it & I cry, it is truly a devastating blow into ones spirit..




I find myself reading & reading trying to occupy my thoughts elsewhere... any chance I get to distract my mind from all of this worlds cruelty and sheer madness , but even then I begin to cry...



I have not weeped in such a way in a very long time. Possibly since the loss of my own mother.



Tears shed as this is written...



You know one would have every right to become angry with a situation as this with the slaughter of all those beautiful children, teachers, faculty & staff... Those innocent children being the larger of #'s among the dead... thinking to myself...what kind of monster is capable of committing such a heinous Act of EVILnessss...



I definitely would & could understand ANGER!!!



exploding from within..

Volcano erupting..

Lava oozing everywhere..

Catastrophic indeed!!!



But this is not something to be angry about, it is to be mourned & grieved and almost nearly inconsolable!!



Anger is only an excuse to further justify behaving as tyrannical BEASTS...



But believe you, me...

Anger, I definitely could understand..

Be upset.. Be angry .. But do not marinate in it !!!



what I am trying to say, is that anger does not suit well for something as tragic as this extreme loss that has caused the entire world to suffer. And I think SUFFER is the best word to describe this entire life event.



No words would ever ease the suffering that this tragedy has bestowed upon us all..



I even found myself in a daze like numbing outwardly expression. Going along with my task at hand but all the while thinking of all those beautiful children...

none.. ZERO... 20!!! beautiful little lives won't be home this christmas or any christmas after that!!!



In the car ride this morning with my father, he was happily discussing with me about Christmas and gifts.. And I just stared blankly shrugging my shoulders here and there.. He even paused and mimicked my expressions.. Which then prompted me to vocalize why I was so doom & gloom.. I said, I can't stop thinking about all those children. Which then resulted in not what I wanted to hear kind of response.. But it was not at all mean, or insensitive, it was actually said quite sadly, "what could you really do ?"



And that is the ultimate blowww... (Not from my dad, but from those very words)...



What could you really do ??



The cards have been dealt, and there is absolutely No turning back.



What has been done, has been done, and there is no undoing!!!



Tragic!!



Ticking clocks we have on time, but there is no button to unwind, what should never have existed to begin with.



Suffering, it exist in the tiny crevices of all of humanity.



Some anticipate its journey into the realm of existence, others fall plague to its arrival, but then there are those who plot it's Demise into full existence, to wreak havoc on those it deems misfortunate to have walked this earth.



There's nothing to be said, except HOW could we all make a change when most of us are not willing to make one ???



I was reading an article in YOGA JOURNAL, written in remembrance of Georg Feuerstein (1947-2012). Feuerstein was a Scholar & true practitioner of Yoga. He wrote more than 50 books, articles and book reviews. His lifelong passion was to make authentic yoga WISDOM known to contemporary practitioners.



So as I am reading along in the article written in Yoga Journal, something that they wrote that he said while living struck a cord, & is completely relevant to this current situation with the awful slayings that just took place last week in Connecticut.



Frauerstein's lifelong passion was to make "authentic yogic wisdom known to contemporary practitioners."



What does that mean???



And Why do we practice ???



He is quoted as saying,

"We are suffering our asses off!"



Philosophy: "We simply practice to end suffering, for ourselves and for others."



And I connected those dots.. At least for myself..because I love practicing yoga.. And there are many benefits my body, mind & spirit receive when I practice yoga and when I further educate myself on the practice of yoga.



One of the most important poses in yoga is Shavasana ~ Corpse Pose, and this is typically done at the end of a sequence of Asanas (yoga poses) , and when a person is in corpse pose this is when "healing" begins to take place in ones body. In Shavasana, the body may be in the anabolic state of metabolism during which organ and muscle repair and development is occurring.



Which leads me to what this article brought to my attention...



INTENTION...



Now, I may not be able to do anything to make something as tragic as this shooting rampage to erase from all of this worlds existence...



Butttt... HOW could I nourish my OWN spirit, another entity whom resides well in me ?



INTENTION...



in my next yoga sequence INTENTIONS will be my focus.. INTENTIONS in assisting to help HEAL my spirit with the SUFFERing of this most devastating loss...



Now it may not be much, but i am always trying to look at the whole, i SEE, that when I am able to heal, I am given the opportunity to make myself available & useful to others, and in this attempt at healing, i try my best to help in any way possible.



This may not be the solution



THINK COSMIC...



Nothing will be able to erase these horrible crimes that have taken place...

BUT...

taking the time out to give yourself a healthy way to try to help urself cope, deal and hopefully HEAL from all of this is a good way to start!!!



Blessings to you all <3>
Another uncounted uncut chant !!





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