GirL interrupted ~ because of Instagram

This was meant as one of my long ass ranty hashtag thing a majiggy but inStagrAm sucks when it comes to allowing me to express myself with a long rant lol and I don't know how other people do it ... They write books .. But whatever .. I guess it's just me lol so I'm not fixing it or changing it .. Leaving it as is .. I just feel like sharing :)) #nOpe #me #Either #juStSay #HeLLo #nowIgotS2gO #no1reALLyCaresAnyWay #moStPpLareJustNoseyMeAn&goSsipY #tALK2meAbouTreALshiT #youKnOwThingsThAtActuALLyMaTter #oriFnotDontTaLK2meATaLL #genuineneSs #authenticity #ReAL #rAw #unCuT #unPLugged #ReALTaLK #reALshiT #shOwMeYourAliVe #iDontAsSociAte2muchWithZombieS #butIAmVeryCiviL&stillKind #iReAcTquickComeBacKoneOfLoVE #theyCaLLmeEccenTric #fknElectriC #iGoTCeLLsAtOmsMoLeCuLeSBLoOd #spirit #courSingThruEveryInChofMe #getWithTheHiStory itAintNoMySTerY #TaKeAstepIn #LoOkWithin #ThereSsoMuchMore2uThatuJustDontknoW #eXPLoReTheSeA #FeeLYourbreeZe #iSeeDeAdPpLmoreALiVeThanManYofYoU #pLAtO #soCrATeS #ALLthoSeKAtS #wereTold2uS #hiStory #theyWereWAyAheAdOfTheirTimeS #wrongGenerAtion #ForWardThinkerS & in this #WorLd I talk like that or YOu talk like that .. And ppl got #joKeS calling uS philosophers like in the Ancient Times .. we Too Were obviously born in the fkn #wrOng #GenerAtion ... So tell me ... When does this shit finally #PoP off ?!!??! #yeAiDontFknDoSmALLTALk #EVeR !!!!! #oKMayBeSomeTimeS #butThAtsCauseImNiCe #andManYPpLAreNice2 #DiScernMenT #getHiPwithThatShiT #fknBunchOfDegeneraTeS #whereSyourHEART

Yes I know let it go ..

You see right through me .. How is that possible ... Why would you want to lol .. It's rather unsettling but quite the homecoming all at the same time ... You've been watching a long time ... How did I Not know ..

Thank you

I have to admit .. It is very very true ... You excite me .. You really do ... Thank you !!

Here .. Now .. Wow

I am here .. I have always been here .. Here is where I stay... In every possible way ... Mentally I am here ... Physically I am there ... Spiritually I am right back here ... You need me, I am here .. You need me .. In the same way I need you ... My heart is yours .. I Am only a whisper away .. I do obey .. In my own way .. It is my balance ..

Cranky loVe

It is said that to truly love another, there has to be no "want" No ownership or possession in your love ... Who said "my" wanting means ownership and possession. It just means I fkn "want" it .. "Want" "You" in my life ... Forget about possession / owning / obsessive / whatever ... Not all "wants" are the same ... Fkn tired of all my love shames ... Made to feel bad for feeling this way ... Punished it seems for having love in my heart ... Should of been born a robot ... That way none of this shit would ever fkn matter ... Ego / love / balance ??????? Blow me !!!

Why not ..

What if we made a plan ... To journey ... Into our space .. Place ... Let's create ... Where shall we meet ... Would you take my hand ... Let's try it .. If we planned it .. And truly tried ... I bet .. This time I would remember ... What is time .. When is now ?? I know we can do it ... For once .. Let's try something together ...

Eckhart Tolle

Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are! __________________________________________ Life is the dancer and you are the Dance ! ___________________________________ To love is to recognize yourself in another __________________________________ Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment #eckhart #tolle #perceptions #views #beliefs #honest2GodTruths #LetThisMarinaTe #in2urMindHeArtSouLEntireBeing #AllWeEverReAllyHaveisNoW I realized a long time ago the importance & the value in our nows. Of course I didn't realize all of this right away, because that's not how we humans roll.. I wouldn't allow myself to see the lesson or the good that came from losing my mom at such an early age as 9. I wouldn't dare for many years let myself believe that any good came from that experience. But of course I was completely wrong in my understanding. And I hate to use the word wrong .. Because all in all these were my feelings, & my feelings are very well valid, cause they are mine & I have every right to feel my pain, anger or whatever I choose to "feel" .... Isn't that the biggest indicator of all that I am Alive, the fact that I can feel. That I do have emotions. That I do care ... I Am a living breathing organism that lives a life of experiences that stirs within me a reaction of some sort that is expressed in actions of whatever emotion I deem the moment appropriate for ......Of course it sucks that for this particular moment it was extreme pain & anger ... & the last reminder anyone ever wants to feel or believes they need in order to feel alive is one of pain. Like.. Ouch!! No way ... Go away please !!! But reality is different for us all, You See ??!?? Anyways, the whole point is what I couldn't see, but it was happening to me anyway, was that without my realizing it, I began living my life in my now... Especially when it was concerning the relationships I was building around me... Forcing me to really look around at those whom I love and care for and understanding that tomorrow is never promised.. Not to anyone !! My moments as a child with my mother before she passed has been my rooting of my entire earthly existence, well in this lifetime. She was my world, and I so loved her very much. She was who I looked up to & idolized in every way. To me she was A star. My star !!!! And when she was taken away from me I just couldn't understand why ... So once she was gone the parts of my brain that surveyed & compartmentalized meaning/value & substance for me, made my own childlike grounding$ system of how I was to consciously treat those who meant anything to me & always letting them know how I honestly feel ... Which is lovingly valuing and cherishing them (IN MY NOW) in every possible way... Feeling robbed from not being able to say my own proper goodbyes to my mother & knowing there would be so much I would never know, that I would wish to know about her, and wanting to know what she would think or say about a certain something ... The people noW in my life well it is extremely important to me for them to always know & be aware of exactly how special and meaningful they are to me in my life. turning point for me In my life was 9... The ripple effect of those events changed my life forever. I even see it NoW With how I choose to consciously and lovingly raise my own daughter. My life may not be perfect, but the circle of love and friendships I have made over many many years of "Living in MY Now" ... The cementing & bonding of love so authentic & pure reminds me of how blessed I am to be so fkn fortunate to have been given something so undeniably priceless, that I know I wouldn't trade it for shit .. Ever !!!! NEVER!!! Not in a billion years ... Priceless.... Eckhart Tolle knows wtf he's talking about .. How beautifully his words articulate to those whom wish to "see" the simplicities of shifting our "Awareness" of living our lives in our "Nows" ... Our NoWs will Always Be OUR Bridge to our own Futures.... It is in these moments that we are absolutely FREE... FREE to be that change that we so desire to SEE... Know what I mean jelly bean ;)) Namaste bitxhes !!!!