Uncut Train Rides ~ dirty LoVe .. Written 2/27/14

Train ride echoes from a distant land .. Oh yup here it is .. Uncut train ride rants .. Even in these moments I feel he's listening ..

His presence lingering & always getting the best of me ...  

I can't stand it .. Force of habit .. I must demand it .. Command it ..  Let me have it.. show yourself you  fool .. I'll reprimand your tool ..

Of course it's blurry you fool ...

Snow White and her rules ... 

Careful study of you .. I know exactly what to do  .. Let loose ... Backed up hard drive sent into overdrive ..

Memory pixels stored deep inside .. Making room for our upgrade, software update .. But pieces of me tied up in our history

advises me to take a step back .. In this land there should be no attacks .. Spirit bleeds Encourageably to distance me assuredly from taking matters into my own hands .. You see now this I also can't stand .. Stupid plans. .. If plan had a head I would bite it off ..

Stupid songs .. Every lyric a reminder of who ??! Ugh stupid fuggin rules ... Blind fury .. The one that I want is the one I must lose in order for time to run smooth for our fkn Big Bang ..

Theories drive me madd .. 

More like .. 

Uncut Astral punch..

The thought of otherS having the ability to ...

Allowing them to travel as they please ...

The ability to come & watch us as We sleep..

Only makes all of us ...

Twisted at this idea of an unwanted intrusion...

Makes me .. 

Invasion of 

Or how about .. 

That sounds better ... 

Uncut LoBotomy

Take it away ...

Wish it away ..

Why does it matter ... 

Why do you matter ...

Do I even matter ...

What the hell is matter anyway ... 

I know the way ...

That would definitely solve my thought patterns ...

Do I Fkn Know YOu???!?

Uncut Cruel intentions ..

You think me cruel after all you do .. You cut into me with all you breathe, as you drip every last ounce of blood that rushes through me .. 

Bleed Free...

My love , you're killing me slow ..

Lovers keeper of woe..

You would think you would love me...

My body .. 

This soul of mine ..

Having me as your puppeteer for these moments.. 

These moments ..

Are Our now  ...

Forget you ? How ??

Blood lust and scorned ..

I am  on the floor once more , 

Scattered & my heart so bloody torn ...

begging & pleading..

Waiting for your release ..

Won't  you please ..

Accept my loves surrender ..

You great big Pretender..

I am cruel ..

Well look at you ...

Here you are with something to prove ..

Cruel deeds sewn into me deep..

You prick and I bleed ..

I am cruel says who .. You ??

Tell me lover what does that make you.. . 

With all you do ...

This here, you are it's creator ..

Divine Love invader ...

Runaway Tamer..

My love never being the one with ill  intentions ..

Have I failed to mention my souls undivided mission to absorb  you with all your smooth cruel Intentions ... 

You own it .. Wow ...

Oblivious as to how .. What can I say now .. 

I obviously having no say in this matter ...

Dark knight of my soul ...

I relinquish all control .. 

Lover taking his toll..

Shaking violently out of control.... loves creed untamed...

Smothering me in every which way...

Love don't possess so what would we call this ...

Yes every bit of you I  miss.. . 

Our love obsessive.. 

Never letting the other go...

Reality failing to show ..

Our true hearts desires ... 

You invisible man .. 

haunting me bad .. 

Causing me to weep ...

Losing so much sleep ..

You dare speak unto me about loves cruelty ..

All cause I no longer play along to the tunes in your song ...

you feeling from me .. 

What distancing ?? 

What ? Exactly what ??

My heart transpires by everything you inspire ..

Longing ..

Craving..

Desire so strong ...

These feelings in me never to Expire..

Feelings to feel my entire life long ...

Castles built in the sky  ...

Getting so high from your flame..

My love just as rare ..

Never once giving it away ...

My soul knows your name .. 

Cries your name ..

Bleeds your chain.. 

We are one in the same ...

As I watch you play Loves cruel games ...

Giving yourself instant gratification..

Your manhood hardened with pleasure from your actions ...

Loving every piece of my loves distraction...

On my knees , your manhood throbbing pleads ..

Submissive me takes your hot flesh in .. 

By all means you have my permission ...

Abuse & drive me wildly insane ...

feeding me your loves erotica of pain..

every waking day..

Nothing new this way .. 

You now no where to be found ..

Travels unbound ..

Only thing left for me  to say .. 

Here I AM.. 

I stay...

Naked & dumb .. 

Numbed by your disease ..

Frozen stuck frost bites...

As I let you melt  your way ...

I'm Never walking away .. 

Quiet till the day ..

When loves pain goes entirely away..

Your love to return on the horizon ..Loving every part of you in every single way ...

You feel my heart ..

It's you who pulls us apart ..

Flame soul lover when do you think you will recover & start .. 

Just play your fkn part .. 

Cruel .. Cruel .. You're fkn cruel .. 

You know what you do ...

me so in love with you .. 

I feel your maddening love ..

This distance ..

It makes  me sick ..

If I had one wish ..

These games we play ..

Mark this day ...

Setting fire to our flames.  .. 

Uncut phone s e X

You feel me pull back ..

But isn't that what you asked .. 

Thinking of me as the one with so much to learn ..

Fuggin nerve ..

Whatever Bert .. 

You run this ..