No reflection ~~ throwback poem - Written - 1/4/1997 - 15yrs old

I gaze in the mirror all I see is a face
a face that blends in with the rest of the world
I stare & try to focus
On who I really am
not just the face standing before me
I'm looking for my reflection
All I see is emptiness
Invisible to the world, but most of all to myself
I'm invisible..
I'm invisible...
Slowly dying
I'm lost & can't yet be found
Or is it I wish not to be sought ?
I'm invisible
But all I wish is to fly... Fly ?
The way to be found is to find thy true self..
True self ?
And as this occurs I will be set free...
Free?
But right now I see no reflection standing before me




Wow.. I listen to the 15 year old girl who wrote this .. And clearly see that I've been here all along ...

Fkn Sagittarius and their deep philosophical quest/zest for life ...

Add Pisces moon to the forefront & u got yourself also an Absolute Dreamer..

The Jenn above who once wrote this poem didn't know it yet.. But she's pretty frkn dopetastic.. And since her search began at such a young age... She found herself just in time <3 nbsp="" p="">
There are so many writings that I am building on eventually sharing, this sharing goes against my genetic makeup.. It will always be uncomfortable & unsettling, allowing others into my world & it definitely takes a lot for me to let go.. Little by little .. I am a very private person & I've never been one to blab.. I do lots of gabbing, but never any blabbing .. And that still applies .. But as far as my own creative process & journey with my stories, poems, songs, essays, etc etc etc .. Well that's a work in progress..

I can not thank u enough for taking this precious Moment of your time to enter into my world. I know how our days can go, and all the things that we must get done & how time consuming it can all be, and the fact that you shared some of Your own most valuable time well that makes me eternally grateful.

Wishing you a life filled with absolute Love, joy , peace & laughter .. For eternity & beyond !!!

THANK YOU

Namaste

Jenn in Wonderland

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All you do is tease
Send me to my knees
Holding ur command
Mind fkn me with ease
With every breath i take
& every move you make
I surrender

Free flow - uncut chant

Sitting here with pen in my hand
Dreaming of a far off distant land,
Realizing now that it has always been my dream...
Dreaming out loud, voices trumpet streams
Sending butterfly Whispers into the wind..
Breezing on by my sweet lullaby, enchantments of desire..
Love quenches me whole...
Tip toes onto my very own soul, happiness so bold & everlasting..
Feel the wind...
Relinquishing control..
heart skipping beats..
Capturing this very moment
Everything absolute & complete
Majestically entranced as I dance rhythmically  intertwined  inside euphonic bliss...
Sweet penetrating kiss, honey dew lips, enchanting & alluring
Love radiating a cascade of rainbows
Understanding what the Gods meant..
As Love comes undone

Uncut chant ~ Universal Laws

That's the beauty with universal laws.. When you see it in action, & at work, it's a marvelous painting. All colors intricately woven into existence...
Coincidences.. Pfff no such thing.. Lol
They are our own powerful guidance systems allowing us to hear, see, believe & feel, exactly what is manifesting into our very own existence...
 & based off of what it is that we think/perceive/believe or what we believe we are seeing/experiencing/living..
Well that  will always remain to be our own subjective experience, and everything we connect as our own... will Always be & remain to be REAL unto ourselves... (Therefore becoming the world that exist before us)

& whatever it is that we think we believe & feel... Well this will be the world that we will actually live in..

everything that we create to be real  for ourselves...

 These things will define our very existence. These things Make us everything we are... These things are what we call ReAlity...

Where do YOu live ?!?

These things Matter!!!

So pay close attention :))


Have Faith in everything you do..

EVERYTHING!!!

(Erase judgement .. Erase what is preconceived as good or bad ... What is your Dream.. What is your vision?? How do you feel?? What makes you happy ?? Everything that you do is it done with absolute Love? What is love ? Can ya feel it ???!? )

have Unwavering faith..

Faith that grows with each waking second  leaving you giddy with passion, JOY & true Happiness.. for everything you believe is what you shall receive ...

Paint pictures!!!
Weave into existence all the powers of your own creations..

Good ones

Intentional ones

peer into ur landscape from far off lands & tell me what is it that you see from this distance ???

Is it  your very own personal & beautiful Dream ?!!??

Believe!!!!

Love with all your might ...

& Always keep believing !!!

Believe in yourself & in your own will & power .. Will Power!!

will Power = Real Power

Clarity of mind, body & soul

Lose your senses & regain all control

Delve deep into what may seem like murky waters.. & be surprised with the cascade of beauty that stands before you ...

LoVe the LuSt building inside of u which creates the FaiTh u need to set sail on ALL of ur DrEaMs

the wonderful world of set intentions & divine purpose...

Divine ...
"of, from, or like God or a god."

Who's your God ?!?

namaste

bless ur heart, spirit & soul & thank you for taking some of your most precious time to engage with me in a blogger style fashion some of my own enchanting babble rants .. It is most appreciated, & please do know & take personal note that even in this fashion,  we met for a reason...

<3 p="">

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Uncut rant .. Here it goes ..
Lord knows what I will say next ...
The words are jumbled in my mind.. Feeling like some sort of writers block .. Ha ! Great .. Inability to sleep & now write .. There are always books .. As well as dance ... But I think I've danced enough for the night ... It's amazing how I never grow tired of dancing or listening to music , because I absolutely LOVE IT !!!

Ok this is a whack rant ... So gotta go ...

& 1 note .. Whatever u believe in .. Believe in .. And keep believing .. Don't stop believing .. Believe .. Just believe !!!!

Namaste ;)

Interesting words spoken

I read an interesting interview on a very fascinating person.. Well I think he is ... And based off what I read, this is all I heard :))

Excerpts from things He said during this interview that I found to be the most interesting.. Interesting for so many many reasons... 1 of them being that it's as if I could of said these very things myself !!

There's no crazier fiction than reality!

That's why I've done everything I've done: because I've been compelled to do it!!!

I don't think you would want to do it unless it was a burning desire ..

If it's not a burning desire, you probably shouldn't be doing it.

… these reasons why we do the things we do. They're interesting questions.

I'll take you on a hike. You wanna go on my hike? I'll take you on a hike.

No complaining though, when we go up there.

I hope that it continues to change

Hmmm. I thought maybe you were a psychology major.

I can't wait to get you on that hill. I am going to take you on that hike.

TaDa.. That's it :))

And just like that the pages turn

namaste :))

Uncut chant ~ What's the good in that ?!?

Recognizing the good in others comes very easily for me ... That is usually why I am the last to truly "dislike" someone ... While everyone waves around pointing their finger at the world.. I walk around observing all, (or I stay in Jenn's Wonderland ) & as I observe it is the good things before me that I search for .... 

I'm usually pretty perceptive to other energies around me, & so if there is anything I pick up that could possibly change my vibrational energy from high to low, I make conscious note of that & entirely block its passageway into my world.... & voila peace exist within....

Now if only we ALL would practice such a practice, now that would make many parts of life easier to deal with... 

Some may say its the respect you have for another individual, but even that "term" could get chopped down in size with our society of pick a parters today... But I would like to view it as some form of honor, where I am honoring your individuality, & even if you are different than I, I respect your individuality & your personal right to it!  And for me that Knocks out any negativity, because I eliminated it from thought. 

Think about It ...

Most of the problems we "think" we have with people, are really problems that we have with ourselves.... It is the things we set forth in our subconscious that unleash the things that stand before us, and if we see something we do not like, well that is a clear indication that one must first search within as to why !!!!!

I lay naked 

Exposed 

Open 

Risking my very own foundation that I have been conditioned to build 

For it is not my own 

I was once told that by way of being I would learn my own passageway 

but by way of being somehow found myself lost along the way 

Truth be told 

That in my trance I found my way to dance and thru dance I found my way 

I lay naked 

Unashamed 

Hearts exposed 

Lighter days 

For I am free

Free your true spirit 

You can not travel a path till you become the path itself!! 

Namaste :)

Blessings to you and thank YOU for meeting me at this very special time and space... May your journey be filled with unconditional love, joy and peace !!!!