Another enchanting freestyle monologue that I love partaking in as my imagination swirls. I love writing these monologues that are inspired from the video compilations I share. I hope you enjoy them too.
All of my life, one of the most favorite compliments I thoroughly enjoy receiving from others is when they tell me that I am actually funny. It makes me feel ecstatic. I don’t try to be funny, but as I realize, it is my trauma and life dealing with drama that has truly shaped this darker sense of humor of mine. I can’t take all the credit for it. But think about that—with all the nonsense and crazy that happens in this world, we do need a sense of humor to survive. Otherwise, you’ll just end up miserable and bitter. I’d rather be humorous and ridiculous than be categorized with those who embrace misery.
Embracing My Unique Laughter
I wasn’t born with this unique giggle to hide it from myself. There was a time in my life where I would intentionally stop myself from laughing and giggling just because my giggle and laugh are distinct. Due to my embarrassment from people always commenting on my giggle and laugh, I would hold back from my own laughter. Think about how insane that is—to deliberately not allow myself to experience pure ecstasy and joy because of feeling embarrassed or shy about the sound of my giggles and laughter. I am soul grateful to no longer hold back. I laugh and giggle everywhere, and I am aware that it annoys some folks too. But clearly, they need sprinkles of pure joy energy around them to be that miserable.
Dealing With Criticism
I’ve even had some folk with the audacity to not believe my laughter, to think of it as some fabrication of purposeful sound being made because “omg, who laughs like that?” I do, asshole! I do!! What in the double hockey stick misery is wrong with some humans? Some people truly have sticks so far up their arse they need surgery to remove them. I work a lot with children, and they love my laughter. Me and the children laugh lots together, and let me tell you, the therapy in that is priceless. That’s why I love animals and I love working with children, much more than with the human mundanes of this world who can be so rigid, judgmental, and unhappy that they can ruin every vibe in an instant.
Reflections on Joy and Judgement
I don’t ever want to be that person. Although I know my joy irks people too. But if they knew the sadness, the misery, and the trauma that I have endured—maybe they wouldn’t be so quick to judge me. However, I refuse to sell a victim story just for validation or acceptance, so those type of people can suck it. I wish them healing, and they are lucky to know my joy because they have been spared my rage, which if I wanted to, I would allow to exist and note it as righteous anger and burn the living sage that I sure am. The fighter in me is splashing in the ocean enjoying every wave but don’t get it twisted—I am not living in any cage, and the warrior in me will show up whenever absolutely necessary. Never mistake my peace for fear or lack of fight because I am curly and spicy, and I do bite. But people like to test the waters, never realizing the earth angel assassin they poke. Go ahead and think it’s a joke. But I wouldn’t dare do that if I were you. People inevitably reap what they sow, and this I know, and I am content allowing what others sow to reap in their own divine right timing. I am not here to judge or make others pay for their own karma or sin. It’s interesting to witness others point their finger and call me a witch whenever they spite me in silence and stub their toe. Meanwhile, darling, we all reap what we sow.
Enchanting Thoughts
But now I know, that you’re not really nice, and divinely lit, guided and protected forever I shall be. Know what I mean, jellybeans? Those who keep learning in life, will keep rising in life. Celebrate every win because you deserve your own pat on the back and acknowledgment. Know your power and feel your empowerment. I know how strong I am through all of my endurance. I have cried the deepest seas and learned I need not know how to swim when the ocean I am. Often, the person who hurts us is ourselves—especially when it concerns other people. We are only responsible for ourselves and our own actions, feelings, and healings, and dealings. When we start to demand and command and expect from others, that’s when we open ourselves up to an entire world of disappointment. Not saying that we should not want or desire certain things, but it’s a fine line we walk when we start to expect certain things beyond our control. We need to ask ourselves why we expect such things when we are responsible for our own life experiences. Whom do we think we are when we start to demand and command from others certain things that we expect—is it fair of us to even do these things? Who made this ideology up? What and whom is God to us within our peripherals? The complexities of existing are sure questionable in every sense of every man-made human word we use for speech. Is anything we ever do or say truly natural and genuine in any way when we are fed spoonfuls of what to say, pray, and do?
Welcome to the Enchanting Paradox of the Rabbit Hole
Welcome to the enchanting paradox of the rabbit hole trip down into wonderland you had no idea this was until you decided to read, and now seer you become and believe it’s only just begun. I giggle to myself at the numerous times men have been intrigued by my presence and believed themselves to want to date or be with me. I would caution them otherwise and say I am better in theory, to save them from the position of place of the highest degrees of expectations I must receive in the reciprocity of everything I deliver. Call me picky, call me selective—I know what I want, when I want it, and having it is a whole other mix. But celibacy and abstinence are not the life for everyone. It requires some of the deepest sea dives that can cause divides, but disciplines create strides in evolution that one never would know existed without having walked the path that most avoid. Because most humans are always looking to fill this empty void, and within it, they need something or someone to submit to, commit to, be one with.
Love and Life
I’ve learned love is something no matter what we all crave and desire in some way, and that’s all I’ll have to say in regards to that in this script. “You must always be willing to truly consider evidence that contradicts your beliefs, and admit the possibility that you may be wrong. Intelligence isn’t knowing everything, it’s the ability to challenge everything you know.” Let’s go back to humor-filled lives. We need humor in our life, so let’s be open to allowing ourselves to live in it more. Look for the funny, especially in the sad, and be glad you were able to experience that magic.
I’ve learned I could be what appears to be inappropriate in certain settings that may be serious to some. Like, for instance, when my mother died—there was a moment during her wake that I sat in front of her casket sucking on a blow pop, and I thought to myself how much my heart was breaking and that there was nothing I could do to change this heartbreak, and then I instantly thought about the blow pop and said to myself, “Who sucks a blow pop at their mother’s funeral sitting in front of her open casket?” and I just started to uncontrollably crack up. Laughter all the way down to my belly at the sheer ridiculousness of my eating a lollipop in the midst of my drowning on the inside.
Oh, I found the humor, and it still killed me. So beautiful souls, find the humor because we are all going to die anyway, so at least die with a smile on your face. In this lifetime, and in many of my lifetimes, I have died a billion and one times, and I promise you, I’ll laugh through them all. I do it for my sanity, and as insane as it may seem, it has saved me. Humor is my everyday go-to medicine that I recommend to the world. “You don’t always attract what you are. You sometimes attract people who are in desperate need of what you are.” Love yourself enough to gift yourself the humor medicine that all of this world needs. You never know who is watching and who you will inspire.
Let Us Dance
“Let me coax the darkness from you—I will help you shape it.” Let us not walk, let us dance. We will begin to trance, and prance will happen naturally. There is no more getting weirder with me because weird is everything I seem to be. “I am both enlightened and feral!” I am welcoming growth, and I am accepting change. Evolution is my reign & transformation is my gain. I do it from love, not for love, and that makes every difference in this world. “May all your delulu come trululu.” I am always looking up at the sky every night because it’s so pretty, and also because I’m hoping to see a UFO—which reminds me, I have a UFO story that till this day I cannot explain. I saw something I cannot identify in the night sky, and this imprint lives in my mind. I’ve grown brave enough to share this story, and I will in divine right time.
“Life really does begin at forty. Up until then, you are just doing research.” Carl Jung’s words resonate deeply, revealing that much of what we experience earlier in life prepares us for what is to come. Each lesson, each challenge is merely groundwork for the deeper understanding and more profound engagement with life that often begins as we mature.
Reflections on Change and Endurance
“It is easier to endure than to change. But once one has changed, what was endured is hard to recall.” Susan Sontag’s insight underscores the transformative power of change. As we evolve, the struggles of the past often fade, leaving us with the strength gained and lessons learned, and making it difficult to remember the pain that once seemed unbearable. Transformations are profound; they reshape not only our lives but our memories and perceptions as well.
Embracing the Light Within
“There are those who accept the dark within them, and become a light for others. Then there are those who deny its existence, and darkness they become.” -LL, LL Musings- This reflection captures the essence of inner growth and the importance of acknowledging all parts of ourselves. By embracing our darkness, we illuminate our paths and can guide others as well. Denying our shadows only leads to a deeper descent into confusion and disconnection.
An Invitation to Dance
Darlings, in the grand dance of life, each step, each movement is a stroke of the brush on the vast canvas of our existence. Let’s not just walk through life; let’s dance through it with joy, embracing both the light and the shadows, turning each moment into a step of an enchanting ballet. Weaving through the complexities of existence, may we find the courage to be truly ourselves and inspire those around us.
How strange and wonderful it is to be anything at all?
Until next time, arriverderci.
With Love Always,
Enchantress Thee Babbler
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