Romantic Feels

Call me a Romantic

Think me rather challenging to please 

at least that is what I have heard 

all life long 

must explain why I am still single 

celibate too 

& perfectly content with how I am 

At thee moment 

even when I acknowledge to myself the desire of craving intimacy too
None are exempt from these feels 

once upon a time ago 

I appeared to be more of a feminist
Strong women have this certain type of flow when they know
their own worth
Once upon a time 

owner (in my mind) of Grumpy Cat theme memes 

Allergic to the idea of love 

& so now when I write this & hear the evolution speaking in me - 

honorably & respective to my whole
I realize how much I have grown in my own thoughts about love
& my entire relationship with self has drastically improved 

experiments from my own  experiences 

I am awakening to every 

Now 

in every now that is right now
I free myself more 

our time is always 

Now 

I sit here 

& analyze the collective energetic “pining” for someone that is not with you for whatever reason - and this vibration circulating the common areas of unrequited lovers theme. 

Somewhere else within I heard this other voice of wise council gift its deliverance of observatory wisdom to announce out loud my true inner view of the lover that is for me - this is speaking truth - I desire to be swept off of my feet in such a way that is possible for me to receive in every single way - and over the top theatrics of displays of love &  devotion need not be - but believe me the soul lover that is mine (forever free he shall be - none is ever to be possessed) a unit we are - harmonizing at our best - this lover of my mind, body, heart &  soul - he sweeps in and surprises me so we go and grow whole & this lover (he) I know without a shadow of any doubt
Love is abundance
So we dance in this light
We shine bright
This I know. 

So it got me thinking ...

I started thinking about this love sick population of collective feels “pining” over someone that pays them no mind, wastes their time, does not honor them as a divine & uses them every time - people ; giving  themselves away to other things and people
are not the most important things to pursue, receive, have , achieve & yet the devil seems tempting offering so many things
That’s not love you see ? .


You want a lover that loves you unconditionally whole
As deserving as you are
But do you feel this way about yourself ?



Wrote this days ago - sharing it now