Unsupported ART

Ok so 
this codependency 
of love 
being purged from this 
collective by meeting 
eye to eye 
with ones 
love 
Lover 
opposing 
views 
to see the view 
for what it is 
lovers on the same page 
even when views come from 
different places 
sources 
of experience on this realm 
once must be complete 
all on their own 
in a healthier zone 
of standing alone 
in ones 
own 
placement 
those daggers that pierce through 
hearts 
expressed in  this journal entry of a heart 
that stabs 
every piece of self inflicting wound 
that once told me 
I was not good enough 
for he 
jaded 
is this me? 
on this celibacy 
of not giving my love 
in any circumstance 
ever a chance 
jaded on these Alice In Wonderland type lands 
so I 
sabotage 
the walls of my own castle 
by painting them inside the 
purgatory 
substances of filth
born in to me 
through poor conditioning 
and loveless 
of these heartless placed in foster care 
style homes 
and asked to become 
the Messiah 
of these lands 
with nothing in hand 
except 
heart pouring 
 out in 
the heartless 
captive man 
that won't have 
me 
unsupported