DEAR SELF

The More and more that I think about it 
and think about my own 
obsessive compulsive 
obsessive
hidden romantic 
ideals 
these imaginative tendencies 
I have 
to go 
way ahead 
of myself 
and declare 
in my 
head 
of course 
Love 
love 
love 
meanwhile
Spirit 
is like 
"child, get a grip! Are you feeling ape shit? Check yourself!"
and I'm like 
eye rolling to spirit 
and just declaring 
myself 
ignorant 
and deaf 
too 
asking for it 
just simply asking for it 
in the unhealthy 
kind of 
asking 
like Addictive 
compulsive 
habits 
that draw 
me to 
desire 
unworthy 
affections 
from unworthy 
candidates
and then spirit is like 
"child, you are no longer dumb. Nor are you numb to any of this b.s 
Know what you deserve 
and only Receive what you deserve m
Always !"  

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Stop craving people 
that do not deserve your crave
stop desiring folk 
that can not even remember your name
stop crying over folk
that can give two flying funks about you 
get in ALIGN with you 
LOVE  YOURSELF so much more 
that anything unworthy 
you kick out the door 
ya heard?