Today makes year 26
without your
physical
on these lands
life so sad
so many years have passed
and that dreaded night remains the same
I dreamt that night with you
before the set pain - there was rain
You told me you were going away
You told me you were going away
I held you tightly in my arms
Saying
NO - this is wrong ..
life without you
it is wrong
this can not be right
suddenly Awoken from deep sleep
I heard my father in the distance weep
I called him over
he beckoned me back to sleep
I refused
he couldn’t speak ..
I commanded with such fire in my soul
that if it had anything to do with
MY MOTHER
that I MUST be told
feeling bold
I watched my dad fall to his knees
Again I repeat, it was very difficult for him to speak
as he continued to speak
his voice so low
My dad, he was weak
and it was then he explained
that my
Mother
My Angel
My Protector
she is gone NOW
does this mean forever?
leaving my sister and me behind
having to find my own align
within this very cruel world
I was just a girl
I was just a girl
I was just a girl
with daddy's curls - desiring her mommas design
here began the end of all my days
sad parade
pain that not anyone could ever take away
numb began that day
And at that moment I could no longer hear
any other sound
Muffling noises out
everything so damn loud
and so I raced back to that place
where I saw you last
inside of my
Wonderland
most sacred space
Designed with GRACE
holding you within this wounded space
that I simply could not erase
I have never tasted so many tears in all my years
forever holding you near
holding our meeting place
entering this space
I CAN still see Your face
hear your voice
FEEL YOU
With our profound soul connecting tie that forms this sacred royal Align -
Mom - I Can Still FEEL YOU
I can HEAR you
Year 26
You were only 26
2626
inside this heart of mine
I built you this Golden SHRINE
in here exists no such thing as time
truth beats ferociously within my mind
connecting our divine
Channeling sublime
With you I had so much time
I Am
ALIVE
because of you
and with gratitude
I HONOR you
saluting you
I LoVE You
❤️
These tears are no longer the same
for they were never in vain
never-ending pain
IT DOES GO AWAY
I write this today
assuring ALL that there is HEALING
within our FEELING when we CHOOSE to
DEAL with them
and it is with FAITH, TRUST and CONVICTION that these tears that now fall
steady
and powerfully strong
GIFTING myself the ability to EXPRESS this pain in my chest that once upon a time would never go away- these tears are definitely not the same
this here is LIBERATING gain
to be able to say
to speak in such a way
of this woman / My GODDESS - whom meant the world to me - and still does - and I am FREE from the misery the sadness that I once believed would never go away - just something I had to live with forever - the hole once there - I can tell you no longer exists - yet I still FEEL as strongly as I ever have about the love that CONTINUES to exist and GROW for my mother - i fkn love her
Year 26 -
our healing never ends my friends
our healing is our expansion
our expansion comes from our healing
evolving
growing
loving
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