I didn't understand fully the power inside of me to Energy Read & instead allowing the energy to consume all of me birthing inside of me what felt like social anxiety .. Saying being in a room filled with so many people was something not so easy for me to do ...
But if only I knew ..
The power of energy and all that it could really do ...
When you snooze you lose ..
Energy sings tunes ..
The power is within you to decipher what tune it causes to ripple all around you ..
Inside of you ...
I would never even sit down on a train even if tons of seats were available for me to sit down in ...
Again.. I never fully understood all the whys .. All I knew was that it was hard for me to even try whenever I took a ride on our Nyc trains ...
And if I had to take a bus ..
That was like no way ..
I was not taking a bus if my life depended on it .. I would much rather walk ...
Train rides were already tough..
But do you see how really rough life can be when you refuse to search within your deep and understand that there is more to learn about you then what you can see ...
Souls buried deep ..
Within these sheets of skin & bones we vessel as our home ..
Truth be told there is always more to know ...
I can see ..
Eye do see ..
The energy vortex created within me ..
Understanding fully now ..
That energy is all around ..
Energy is real as can be ..
You are energy ..
So is me ..
When we cross paths..
The energy reader in me so sensitive to energy would receive and unknowingly would allow for your energy to tag along with me ..
Become a part of me ..
I feel your energy ..
Understanding this in me has been FUNdamental to my instrumentals allowing me now to see that energy as alive as can be .. If I am AWARE cause I see I CAN deny any energy access that I do not wish to be ..
to infiltrate unto me ..
Because I do see & Believe that my understanding of all that is GIFTS to me control of severing all energy i no longer wish to hold ...
Energy is real folks.
Energy high towers are we ..
Transmitting our energy everywhere we be ..
Understanding this has been most BENEFICIAL & crucial for me ..
Allowing this supposed anxiety I believed me to have .. To become this thing that use to be but now is from my past ...
Energy free at last ..
Imagine that !!! Walking into a filled room or place that you are so receptive and sensitive to all energy from all around ..
Making me feel like collapsing down ..
Energy indeed profound ...
Energy is LOUD ...
How does knowing all of this change the anxiety in me ..
Allowing me to feel in control ..
Well AWARENESS being your ultimate key ..
Allows you to intellectualize the process so very deep within your psyche...
Knowing that what I still very much receive from all the energy around ..
Allows for me to protect my own energy field surrounding me ...
Understanding fully that what I am feeling is not really mine ..
Well that in itself OPENS my eyes ..
This energy being received all at once may not be fun but it is NOT mine ..
If it's not mine ..
Why should I hold on to it ?
Why should I carry it ?
What benefit does it provide to me ?
All this reception to this energy I receive I can decipher and transfer it to something else .. The something else is AWARENESS & KNOWLEDGE ..
As practice in the beginning of my own energy awareness I would receive the rush of all the energy around me all at once and I would begin filtering it out. Learning more and more what it is all about. Beginning to focus on my sixth inner sense .. Trying to make better sense of all of this & use it as my own personal fix / medicine ...
I began to start to play a little game ... Filtering the energy coming my way & locating its energy source / provider.
Honing in on my empathic rider located inside my human vessel. If I am here to help let me practice my energy reading skills ~ because as I was beginning to conceptualize / intellectualize / fully comprehend is that energy is the Realest thing out here & since it's real im here to decipher all that it is that I am gifted to sensitively feel ...
So here is where practice came into play .. Picking up energy every which way and finding its rider ...
As I built confidence in being able to identify where the energy I was receiving where it was coming from I started to test it out to see if what I perceived / believed / imagined was really deal was actually the total legit deal ... And so my mini test came ... Bravery was me .. I was to be led by spirit if and when the time came to be to freely speak wherever receptivity picked up something from another that I could in someway speak to another convey something to them in one way or another that I perceived / believed / or received ...
Bravery .. So to speak ..
I remember the first time i nervously gave it a go to some random passenger on the train ... When I tell you my heart felt all her pain .. She had been worried and sad for days .. Her message received was that everything was going to be ok .. My message for her was to tell her everything was going to be ok ... I clearly remember this day .. I procrastinated the entire train ride .. I felt on fire as if I was hyperventilating inside .. Talk about an anxiety filled ride ... But NOW was my time .. To put to test what felt so real for me .. I needed to see if i was in fact maybe going "crazy" ... And so the moment came .. Ironically we both were getting off the very same stop ... And I remember my inner pep talk was just like Nike air ..
Do it !! Do it already ...
And just like that ..
I put on my big girl panties and with extreme Angel Goddess Bravery I approached the woman very gently but assuredly and spoke to her as I was being divinely led ... And I kid you not .. The look in this woman's eyes told me all I needed to know before she even spoke ... With tears in her eyes she looked at me and receptively & tenderly she thanked me for what I had said ... We parted ways and I never saw that woman again ...
But from my first encounter it inspired further in me to BELIEVE in the energy I do RECEIVE & PERCEIVE ..
And from this Faery day of experimenting in my own way ... I have evolved immeasurably trusting in my own AWARENESS of a gift & I continue to evolve every single day ...
Growing in every which way I possibly can ...
Uncut train ride chants ..
Energy is real and this is a fact ..
Next stop I hit the streets ..
Enchanting babbles train ride of soul deep beats ..
Dreamer is me ..
Uncut soul sweet
Namaste
Earth Angel Goddess Way ©
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