Going on & here, just a confused sad child
Always Not knowing what was
Going on .. But feeling like something was ..
feeling compelled yet either way to watch my so called life, without any interruptions ..
Not knowing the people in my so called life , not even knowing who I was , & what part this all played. I continued on with my so called life , and always for whatever reason was reminded always in the back of mind that there was so much more that I was missing.
All my life I shared my so called life & no one ever knew what I talking about, or who I was speaking of .. So my so called life, just like everything "Right" with this world was thrown into the back burner.
But still always there..
Lingering .. tingling ..
Making absolutely 0 sense ..
Nada ..
Convincing myself that i lived in a world of Optical illusions ...
But Memory never allowing me to forget!!
A couple of years before my 30th birthday I connected hard body and soul with music. I connected with music at just the right time, when I needed this music in my life. Where I needed to feel something!!!
For music has always been a part of my life, my world , my journey
but The spiraling abyss of my so called life became conflicted. loving what was only natural for me & denying it just the same ...
It was the denial that took its hold over my so called life & taught me "stagnation"
Music & its significance in my world helped me to Realize a most important "priceless" thing ..
that this life ..
My so called life .. Was NOT..
My So called life !!!
So upon finding these symphony's, that reached out to my spirit ... Penetrated into every part of my being ...
I slowly but surely .. without realizing.. started to come alive
WHY??!!!
My heart was being moved ... (Where / why ? ) Changing .. I was changing (why??!!) ... Growing .. I was growing .. (Why ?? How ???)
What does this all mean ???
And why ??!!
Growth
Change
Life
What did this all mean ... For me ?!!??
Who are you ?!!?!
Who are you began the quest ..
The search ..
I realizing many many many (many!)NEW but different (but not so different) things.
I came to Life..
My so called life ..
Checking in ..
And still unfortunately checking out whenever my so called life became too much for me to handle.
How the tides have changed ..
(Wonderfully so. )
At that time I was Still unaware of the hidden dynamics of what this discovery with music truly meant, cause still I didn't put a face/picture/answer to what or why or how the music was connected to me or even what it was slowly teaching me, guiding me , showing me ...
I just went with the flow..
I, naturally as time progressed for the first time EVER went Inside..
Inside Me ... and so began Alice's journey into Wonderland.
My journey ..
Our journey ..
For we are all connected ..
We are one ..
Music being the master Key into my life, opening the very doors I sealed shut ..
Allowing me to search for me ..
And find my looking glass ..
Reflections ..
Alice always said mirrors ran deep ..
She knew something ..
She just didn't allow herself to see, or BELIEVE
All of this discovery Years in the making so to speak ...
Music taught Alice & I
To Breathe ....
How to become
One !!
Music also taught me how to be free & accepting of me.. And everything i am ....
Music opened the doors to questions ..
And answers ..
To only be met with more questions ..
But also more answers ..
And that's how that story goes..
This journey .. The one of my so called
Life ..
Music unleashed in me the Dancer within
She's free!!! I'm free!!! no longer looking for new ways of concealing her or me ..
we stare at our reflections now ..
And LOVE who we see !!!
ME
HER
YOU
ME
THE WORLD..
finally understanding and knowing how to love ..
UNCONDITIONALLY
Music taught me how to Live & let live.
Music awakened in me ..
LIFE!! And life therefore introduced me to
LOVE!!
And on that note ..
I am Blessed ..
THANK YOU !!!
