Passion of Christ - Uncut

Passion of Christ movie sooo hard for me to watch this movie .. Hurts my heart .. But I watch it anyway .. (Not now but in the past & periodically whenever I feel moved to watch it )  Hysterically crying pretty much thruOut entire movie ..

It's so painful .. I'm like in there .. In that movie .. Feeling every fkn emotion ... But you wouldn't believe which character I always associated 

Myself (weird) & now my favorite question (why?)   aside from my extreme connection/devotion to the portrayal of Jesus ( whom I adore )

. There was one other that stood out .. As if I was she .. And she was me .. It's crazy

I'm

Going to look into this.. 

Oh shit I should also post my drafts on here ..

But not yet .. Lol 

Uncut Cut Alice

The only thing that links us in this realm of existence, I must let go!!

Last time I did just that &
It was so very hard for me , I even called myself ridiculous. But in doing so it allowed me to Live. I lived & I found many many things.. So for that I am eternally grateful! It didn't change the dynamics , and it even disproved the notion of "out of sight out of mind" cause that saying is bogus too...

But it did bring out the best in me ...

And as i continue to grow & manifest all beauty in my world .. And look to your inspiration in being able to do the same, I admire & honor that trait in you.. Cool shit !  I feel insane !!

But my path has emerged either way ... And again .. Grateful !! For I finally See the light .. My light !!

It's funny upon meeting I said .. I knew you from somewhere

.. Haha! Insane !! & I also said I had much to learn from You... Double shocker ( to myself ..
Cause I didn't know where that inkling came from )..

But anyways ..

That saying ..
"Destroys what destroys You"

I never appreciated that saying ..
Always viewed it as a negative ..
But it truly is not ..
I just have my own "work" to do too...

Alice rarely makes any sense ..
She talks to herself most times..
Peering thru fragments  of a broken looking glass..

Who are you ?!!!?

Now that is certainly the right question !!

For mirror images run so deep they cut her soul forcing her to let it all go..

Alice a very big part of Wonderland ..

Will one day see herself soon

Until then she's going to go in her corner and devour Alll the magical little shrooms till all the nonsense makes perfect sense 

...

FREE write

Word Play with some of life's major players...

FREE WRITE


Although, I AM, allowed to leave some things out just for myself :)

The Butterfly
The Dragonfly
The Wolf
The Horse
The Duck
The Monkey
The Dolphin
Mr. Owl
The Jaguar
The Cat
The Dog
The Elephant
The Otter (need to check this one out)
Omg yes of course the Unicorn

In crayon land Red

always belonged to Blue... & I would get mad if Pink

came around to distract... oh my the arguments I would have with ppl whenever I was explaining blue & red & their significance haha

The Pig
The Bunny

Faeries
Witches
Goblins
Spirits
Ghosts
The "knowing"
Creepy vision
Eery sounds
Voices
The drum beat
Even silence has a sound .. always said that

Swirls
Whirls

"Nobody loves me song"

Heat
Dreams
Purple
Devil
Poems
Fallen Angel
Alice
Ariel
Belle
Tinkerbell lol

Astrology
Tarot cards
Ouija boards
Crystals stones
Research !!!!!
Aliens
Vampires
Rainbow Brite
Indestructible (I think that's the name of the movie)
CALIFORNIA
volunteer
Teaching
Hospice
Missionary work
Counseling
massage
Reiki
Stimulants

Good
Bad
Karma
My mom
My SISTER

paths
Water
Astronomy
Philosophy
Art
DANCE
Acting

Castles

Fairy tales
Loner but surrounded
Foreigners
LOVE
old soul

That's it no more sharing ..
It's a W.R.A.P...

Presents come in clever disguises ...

The moon applauds ...

Dreamin Out Loud - Uncut

 Maybe it is the snow..

something about it..
yea maybe it is the snow..
this unexplainable heavy feeling saturating me with light heavy assortment of flakes..

yup maybe that is it...
You know.. the snow
taking me to this place that is all too familiar and yet still unknown 

why am I feeling this way..
my heart hurts..
this stabbing pins and needles sunken ship

I take a walk into Wonderland

Only to see the front page of the newspaper  speaking news of another tragedy and this overwhelming urge to just cry takes over once again..

As I continue on my snowy path I realize I am not alone..
As the story goes.. Apparently when I pay mind I can see.. All the "beings" surrounding me..
but this time its just the 3.. accompanying me along my path but giving me my much needed space and distance to make sense of these feelings..
what in the world is happening..

I look back and one of the wolves nod in recognition as the other two peer into my soul..
why is this normal...
I sleep disturbed

images so very clear and recognizable
I talk in my sleep.. muffled sounds..
But this snow...
Its trying to tell me something
I swear it truly does something to me..
 this place this space
this moment but not this moment but some point captured in time
 the snow takes me to charted but uncharted territories
 I am fkn losing my mind..

a place of mystical proportions
distortions
oh god I think I am making myself  sick
such wretched nausea; stomach; soul; heart; mind
where is this place the snow attempts to take me too..
what is it that I am suppose to know...
why is it that the picture remains incomplete/obsolete/intangible
A place that feels more like home then this ultimate treachery of a reality that has many a time attempted to deceive me in convincing me that this place here is called my home..

But alarmingly, and shockingly, I never once wavered in my belief ..
The higher part of me shielding me from falling in deeper to these optical illusions..
Filled with pollution ...
My soul screams...
Alice, what is wrong??? why must you cry? 

Snow Angels paved into the ground
Hope (Ful) Bliss (Ful) Soul (Ful)
I do not belong on this realm...
 home is where my heart is bound...
In this life will this place ever be found..
Dreaming Out Loud

Happy Dizzy Feet

Don't worry Be Happy
Don't worry Be HAPPY

Got this song stuck in my head..
BE HAPPY ....
Internally truly Happy ..

HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY

Any other feeling brewing or brewed or stuck
Give it to God..
Whomever/Whatever that may mean for you
God.. spirit.. Angels... Apes..

Mirror reflections
Till that is exactly what your breathing in...

At its fullest capacity & then magnify it ...

Don't worry Be Happy
HONOR your beautiful imperfect  Soul...

QUeen of hearts .. uncut of course

Sometimes life beckons you to free your spirit

Work out karmic disruptions
And stop faking Jacks
Sometimes life grabs you and says live & let live
Dance freely 

Lead & be led

Trust
Let go
Honor your Spirit & it's commands
What's going on in this dimension of ours
Sometimes life beckons you to raise your bar

Why ask why unless  you really Care
Well if that would be the case...
Then why you're never  there ..
Cosmic imbalance karmic interactions
Alice fell down the fkn rabbit hole again

Or has she always been fallen..
Madd Hatter has her spinning in circles..
Queen of hearts expels the explosion..
Off with their heads...

Lucky 13

Happy Lucky 13...
Miss you!!