Dismantled fragments lie awake
A fairytale too grand escape
Momentary fleeting sound 
 violin strumpets loud 
Violent streaming crown
The trumpet sounds 
Alarm alarm
For in the chapter awaits the three
Mass construction deception lies
Too grand escape upon him dies
Bejeweled win four peer in her eyes 
Pour words unspoken 
Transgress release the bond now broken 
Mirrored scene runs on open 

 

Ur making my soul on fire 
Taken me higher 
Make me do things I will never forget
Filled with desire
Placing me higher
Ur touch is making me sweat


We have to release this steam...
This caption... this dream...
Only between you and me 
It seems... whats not real
Is there anything between...
This scene
 play your part 
This fleeting heart  a - ticking - clock

making me want to scream
Breathe in deep
Feel the beat
Captured hearts in a dream
Masquerade call the spade 
This charade 
Lights out 

Ur making my soul on fire 
Taken me higher 
Make me do things I will never forget
Filled with desire
Placing me higher
Ur touch is making me sweat

Six feet deep
Take me under
As I plunder 
 nights Of wonder 
 drenched  hear the thunder 
Filled with sparks open cage
Igniting the flame 
Flesh desire open wire
Rest assure Take me higher
Surrender
Taste it here fill it there the rest be prepared for the dive 
As two souls collide  

Just some dabbling lol

Intoxicating endless while 
The thought of u makes me smile
Satisfies my deepest need
To quench my thirst with all u breathe 
Sifting through my veins
Penetrating in my brain
Echos of ur soul 
Captivating the love flow
Bewitched I can tell 
completely under spell 
Mesmerized haunting gaze 
Hypnotized have ur way 
Breath...
Less...
Sense of touch...
Enticing groove cradle lust  
Entranced and captured...
Picture dust...
On my knees 
Bleeding cry... here to please
Won't u try? 
Leave completely mesmerized..
Bleed dry...rock hard...
In love with a super star!!!

Thunder & Lightening

As I turn to go
The rain flow
Thunder and lightening
Thunder and lightening

As I catch the rain
Pounding  on my face
Thunder and lightening

Ur love has put me under
Rest assure I will never surrender
U had me beat at my own game
U had me believe love is pain  always prepared  for the rain and thunder (cause u r my thunder)

But as painful as this has to be 
I strike with sudden speed 
And clarity
lightening bolt snap me back in reality
For I leave u Here in this place of space 
thunder 

Prepared me well cause I've released ur spell
All the things I held on to 
(thunder and lightening)  

Prepared by all the rain
 u helped me to gain
Constant rain 
Here comes the storm 

Take us under 
You put us under 
Thunderous thunder taken in breathed in pulled in sucked in 

Done in 
Thunder 


But with lightening speed I'm
Striking back 
Being prepared cause  I'm under attack

Piercing thru u  unexpectedly 
Having ur heart beat skip so suddenly 
Heart song melody died so heavily 
In ur arms 
 slipping right thru u 
Drenched and armed
Massacred slained
Slipping away cause thunder equals pain
Loved u wholeheartedly 
Sinking/Drowning
Swirly abyss deadly kiss 
thunder has finally  swept me under
 Runaway
With Lightening speed
strike with such ease
& prestige have u no shame 
For here comes the rain 
Thunder & lightening 

Blah blah

The ancient Greeks said, "Know thyself" I think this is alwys the question/quest in our lives because we r constantly evolving/growing  

So I conclude to "know thyself" is to always know who u r at every given moment  of ur life & to try and never lose sight of YOU and who YOU are no matter the circumstances....

Cause 2 "know thyself" sets us free from all the bondage and shackles of what it really is like to live in this world, striving 2 be just like everyone else, fitting in with the rest of the world or just simply conforming 2 what we think we need 2 be based off of someone else's needs or standards... 

Society rules...
It dictates...
We are tainted with distortions and fed lies and yet what do we believe??? What happens to who we really are? 

Do we follow?

Flow? 

Or rule????
(I choose to rule) 

Being true 2 urself  is really "knowing thyself" always... 
Because when all is said and done and we  come face to face with our own reflections...
And when we ask ourselves who is it that we have truly become...

The answer should never be muffled...

Distorted....

Or left unanswered....

The answer should ALWAYS remain and ALWAYS be.....
ME!!!! (u not me... But me... U know what I mean?)

I came, I saw, and I conquered 

And in the end it was always ME!!!!

"know thyself" : I guess they were pretty smart back then too lol

Uncut chant 5

So as I prepare to close one chapter of my life a new chapter awaits me! Although scary and sad it's exciting and thrilling to know that I am on my way to much happier times 

How to tell if your man is a PSYCHO!!!!

Ladies so how many times we meet a guy and get so caught up in the illusion of the things we Want in a relationship and wind up getting completely blindsided by the man that stands before us. 

We get so caught up in the hype that we ignore all the clear warning signs that are given to us that indicates that this one we picked is not the one. In fact he's a psycho. 

The definition of a psycho that I am using here is one of a person who demonstrates any form of psychotic, controlling, tyrannical abusive behavior. 

You would think that hey I should be able to spot that. And you think oh my man doesn't display any of those type of behavioral tendencies. But let's dive in and truly find out. You could lie to yourself or live in denial if you like but you can't ignore these signs that indicate your man is not all up there. And if he's capable of doing any of these listed things then who knows what would be in store for you once it really is too late. 

So first off his past relationships are clear indicators of warning signs that should immediately trigger you to be weary. His past loves are afraid of him. He's not allowed to go near them because of a restraining order. Or whatever the reason may be. Learn as much as you can about his past loves. 

And you wonder to yourself but who would share all of this information? You never know if you never ask. You have every right to inquire especially if you are considering long term commitment. 

Now if the man in question doesn't reveal much about his past still be weary cause again you never know. Why is he not willing to share anything about his prior relationships? Also pay attention to how he expresses himself when speaking of his past relationships. What tone is he using? What expression is on his face? 

Ladies investigate. 

Cause the wolf always hides in sheeps  disguise. 

He wants to know your every move. He wants to know everything at all times. He snoops through all your things and violates all your privacy. He justifies his actions by saying it's cause he cares or worries about you. He says he just looks after his ladies this way cause he would never want anything bad to happen to you. 

He speaks badly about all your friends and family. This kind of man please watch out for.
 His desire is to isolate you from everyone. He wants to break you down so that in the end you are solely dependent on him. All those other people in your life I tell you now if you do not heed warning.... One by one just like a domino affect you will see your friends and family disappear. 

And it won't be because your friends and family do not love you or care (cause this kind of man would allow you to believe so) it's cause you have distanced yourself (and if this guy is any good he would have you believing it was ALL your idea) and if you are this far in chances are you really believe this for yourself. That this was all your idea!!! Honey you are only fooling yourself. 

Big one here... If he HitS you once believe me no matter what he says or how convincing he is he would definitely do it again. And if he is the type that even with physically abusing you he never apologiZes. Well then you are in for a real treat. Cause he is a ruthless one. No compassion and no remorse shown for his actions. This individual could be very scary almost seeming possessed. Seriously get the fuck away asap. There is no nicer way to say this. 

If that is the one you are dealing with..... Run far far away!!!!!

He is always there to relinquish his verbal onslaught of abuse. Using the most horrific of words and calls you every name in the book. He tries to make you believe you are all these things he called you. Chances are if you are in deep you probably believe most of it. 

He's weak so his job is to make you weaker. Most likely he saw in you qualities he secretly desires for himself (and it sounds crazy I know.. But remember topic... Psycho path!) His job here is to break you down emotionally, psychologically, spiritually etc. He's a demon. All your shine he wants to take away!!! Everything you are snapped right out of existence. 

This is not love!!!!

Obsession!!!

He is overly jealous and every other man is a threat. It doesn't matter who it is. (for this kind of guy even ur dad could become a problem. Cousins, uncles, close personal male friends). Consider them enemies in his mind no matter how he tries to sugarcoat it. 

Now with this overly jealous obsessive guy 1 of 2 things could happen in this scenario. Because you choose to stay and allow this man to dictate your life all men from the outside are never to be a part of your world. And if he finds out otherwise (which he will) woe to you cause you are such a dirty whore!! (more beating and isolation may occur) 
The other scenario is men are limited in your sphere but because they are not fully eliminated from your reach you still pay this price from time to time. You probably are constantly accused of flirting or cheating or whatever!  It doesn't matter what it is cause all this man will see is potential threats and because in his eyes you belong to him you pay the ultimate price for betrayal. And if he is the physical abuser kind (which he probably is) you do pay the price when his ego feels bruised in any way. (this scenario leads to more isolation and beatings)  

What about those friends I was talking about?? Your Friends!!! Your girlfriends  are never good enough. Old friends and new friends. He probably says they are bad influences or trouble. (Understand this... He's the only one who is trouble!!)  This guy has something to say about each and every one of them. And here is the reason why.
 Because females talk and females share. And true real friends keep it honest and real. This kind of guy wouldn't Want for you to get any kind of ideas of rebelling in any way just because your girlfriends said. Remember they can Not tell you what to do in his eyes he is the only one allowed. 

Your money. He tries to control what you spend it on. He may even try to cover it up and masking his true intentions by saying it's for your own good cause with him he will help you to budget correctly. And girl let me tell you no matter how right you do this you will always be doing it wrong in his eyes. You are not capable of maintaing finances. He wants for you to believe this because when the time comes (and it will)  he will be  in complete control of all finances. It would be just one more thing added that you have to rely on him for. 

Do you see this pattern??
Do you see how this could all leave to psychotic behavior.

Do you see how this is psychotic behavior???  

Men like this their minds operate differently. Their minds do not function normally? These men have MANY screws loose in their head!!!!


What's psychotic you may say... 
Anything or anyone who tries to break you. Anyone who forces you to do anything against your will for fear of some horrid consequences. Anyone who behaves as a tyrant and abuser. Anyone who justifies these behaviors and does so convincingly that you are almost fooled (or maybe you are) 

These signs I give you are just skimming the surface....
 but what about the secret closet of pain for those of you involved in a relationship like this or those of you who have luckily made it out of one?

The nightmares of losing those close around you. The fear of someone lurking in a hidden corner ready to pounce and attack you. The manipulation used to control you. The repeated beatings. Those silent screams. Rape! Torture! Fear!

It's madness!!!!

And it has to STOP!!!

It's a very sad world we live in when knowing this is happening to millions of woman in this world who cant help feel defenseless and hopeless. 

Remember in the beginning for those of you who still have an early chance for a safe exit....
Once an eyebrow is raised on any peculiar behavior exhibited with your man. Ask yourself  Is he really truly  worth it? 

I say He is a piece of shit!!! And the biggest coward ever!!!

And get out while you still can!!!!! 

The only way to silence this enemy is to attack the enemy by revealing and shouting truth.

God has even said...
"For the truth shall set you free"

 Do not allow your silence to be his gain!!! No monster like this wants to be seen by all.
 Remember silence is the enemy. And denial is your enemy. 

And this man who is by your side....

He is your biggest enemy!!!!

Don't allow ur  fear to grip at your core and rip you to shreds. 

He is only a MAN!!!!!

Remember that... 

And he's not a real man either. 


God bless you all!!!

And
You know what needs to be done!!!

So do you and get your life back!!!!