Uncut CheckMate

On the fence with just giving it a rest for

My mind & heart  is in dire distress  ..

Nothing at all makes any fkn sense, everything just a morbid flake .. But my life and my future is all on dear stake ..

Tidal waves fill my mind undercurrent making me blind ...

Once upon a dreadful time I put you away simply for clarity and fog lifting of my brain ..

How do I let you go ... When it's you I only know..

You breathe into every part of my existence ... I wish this weren't so, I don't wish to let you go ..

I just have no place to go that is tangible .. I wish for me to stay & endure all of  this rain ...

Holding tight to some dream of faith

I could live another day ... erase this pain  ...  But this pain in my heart in my heart in my head...   hurts me so bad leaving me dead..

An infliction so deep the gods themselves weep... 

You're filled with such silence ..

I can't even sleep ... Silence so sweet I can no longer wear.. I wonder Do you even really fkn care ...

Wonderland house of secrets ... Please please you must share  .. MadHatter, MadHatter what is under there ...

Wearing my heart with such fashionable bleeds ... Pricking into me such unlawful deeds .. Plaguing me with your insanity... I will always love you more than I've decreed ...

Chasing you relentlessly... Am I late ? Is it too late ?? For the rabbit did declare some importance about time ...

Where is it in wonderland where you & i rhyme ... You use to be much muchier.. I believe you lost your muchiness..

Hearts are a mess ... Who is the cause of all of this .. This ?!??? Waiting on you now to release unto me every part of this wicked fantasy turning it into our desirable reality ... 

Mirrored pieces shattered glass into our space of non existent lands ... my love for you ceases to never end nor to ever be replaced.. If there is no you, there is no me.. .. MadHatter, MadHatter can't you bloody see.. .. For the queen always guards her king.....

The sacrifice of all the pawn, allows our song to marinate long ... Each piece riding the fiddle.. Strategically in place .. Queen meets her King in a Win... CheckMate! 

Uncut lullaby

I cry now because there is so much I wish to say, if only all eyes would turn & look the other way... I would muster up enough courage to reveal the fire burning within my heart.. That could just be the start... To the floodgates opening ...

Missed my chance ...

Sand slipping thru the cracks, as I say my goodbyes ...

Love you will always be my sweet lullaby..

Flame heart dies ...

Muffled voices cry as I imagine you sing me goodnight..

My sweet lullaby ...

ARtTheraPy uncut Flow

As we turn,  slip into my hands..

I feel the floors are doors... 

I got a system in my head 

Telling me to take it slow 

Telling me to let the day ...

Move on go ... Unleash the flow ...

All I ask is to go ...

Go.... before I'm swallowed .. 

All I know is i am home ...

Uncut unspoken dreams

Curtains fall down .. 

Muffled silences..

The crowd goes wild... 

Dreams floating on by ..

Souls desires whisper melodies but unable to foster any intelligible sound ...

The beats stays in my heart..

Dreams unspoken out loud .. 

Uncut safety nets ... ARtTheraPy

Safety net don't help me now in this hole I've fallen down a new home I've made a new way to breathe skinned apart ... 

Uncut TomorrowS

It is quite obvious I am losing my Popsicles ...

Then again there is always tomorrow... Which can always alter lines of events that can take place in ones life....

Justifying for me allowing myself to finish off my own behavioral hiccups for today until I pass out somewhere cold ...

Arising to a brand new day ... Tomorrow

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But in the meantime I'm going to finish this current Popsicle off ...

I don't care who's fault it is ... 

Tomorrow is another day ...